Depression: The Neverending Battlefield

Growing up I struggled with depression. In the past I refuted every negative thought with something positive. But then high school graduation came and went. Everyone had high expectations of me but non were my desires, non pursued my dreams. I sunk deeper into depression and became suicidal.  I remember laying on the floor of my room, thinking of all the ways I could end my life. But I love Jesus and all that He's done for me, especially laying down His own life for mine. My desire to let God decide when to call me home is stronger than my desire to end my life. So I created a new motto; one step at a time, one day at a time. It isn't easy but my life is better and I feel stronger emotionally for fighting this battle. God gave me the strength to pick myself up off the floor every time I sunk into the pit and He still does. He is my strength and my refuge. He may not take away our pain but He most definitely carries us through. All we gotta do is ask. 

The Triangle: Pray/Worship/Bible

The Triangle:  Prayer, Worship and God's Word.

We really need all three in equal doses. We read the bible, listen to christian music and pray when someone needs prayer. But we should read the bible daily even just a little bit (though the more time the better),  it can vary day to day too,  some days we have more time than others. Daily we should worship, this does not mean listening to music, it means singing along in total abandon with our whole hearts, I can sing my heart out while I am working but I do make the effort to set time aside (at night before bed, sometimes I "wake up on the wrong side of the bed" with a bad attitude and I have found that singing one of my favorite songs gets me back on the right track. I am working on reading my Bible daily, I was almost there when I started my new job, but it's still a work in progress. that's okay, it takes 21 consecutive days to create a habit so if you do something even when you don't feel like it and do it consistently it will become a habit. :)

BE SOMEONE

This graffiti in Houston has been there for at least a decade. I never really liked it because I saw it as pressure to be someone as in rich or famous. But recently someone ruined the original art and media outrage ensued. I discovered that to some of my fellow Houston natives this message inspired hope, and I started to see street art with a new set of eyes, looking for the deeper meaning in each artwork. Be someone now means that if I have a dream, I can pursue it, the journey won't be easy but the dream is possible and all I gotta do is try. Instead of seeing graffiti as tacky I now see some of it as beautiful.

Here is my picture I took recently.

BE SOMEONE